Kat's Scribbles

Thursday, May 22, 2003

I just figured out that I let things get to me too easily. (Yes, for all those who knew this all along, kudos to you then.) This is why I get easily stressed, angry, road-ragey, hurt, sad, irritated, what have you. Like today at work, this stupid beeyatch cut me off in our parking lot; I paused to let a car through and she sneaks over to the side. It took all willpower not to honk (heck, it could’ve been a co-worker that I liked), but then I did honk anyway (about 5 minutes later) when she pulled into a spot very abruptly without warning. Then I blew up at my secretary today. For no reason at all. She’s the sweetest lady on earth…very nice, to the point that many folks take advantage of her. But I was pissed because her niceness gets in the way of her work. We’re talking efficiency here. I asked her if she wanted anything because I was going to the cafeteria. She orders scrambled eggs and bacon which would require me waiting at the cafeteria for at least 10 minutes before they get made. So I’m like, “fine, let me call ahead so I can place the order” and she was like, “No, you want me to do it? Let me pick it for you then, I’ll just get it and I'll buy yours too.” This statement triggered some pent-up feelings about her…so I’m like “Jeez, why do have to make things so complicated? I asked you if you wanted anything because I was going there anyway. I’m not telling you to get it and I’m not asking you to buy me my breakfast.” We get into this whole spiel about her being “too nice.” In the end, I apologized for being so nasty. I was being mean. But I only get mad at her because I care about her. She does a million things for everyone else but herself, and I’m just upset that sometimes, she takes on too much, then pulls an “I’m a martyr” tirade…and so on and so on. *sigh*

Work’s been getting stressful. I have a ton of work to do on my desk. At the same time, I’m worried about finding a job come September. Thank goodness our summer law intern is coming in next Tuesday. I am soooo behind. And to top it all off, it’s stuff that I know has to be done, but I don’t want to do. I’m sure y’all get that feeling. I was very easily flustered today when I could’ve handled it better. Before, work issues never got the best of me, but now they seem to ruin the whole day….I’m sure this is just a phase though.

So from now, I’m going to try my best to just let things roll off my back and I won’t take it personally. So if there’s crazy things going on at work, I’ll deal with it but I won’t let it cloud the whole day….I refuse to be a stressed out laborer!

POSTED BY KAT AT 5/22/2003 05:09:00 PM |

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